be forgot and ne'er brought to mind...
Happy 2014. It's a new year, time for fresh starts and new beginnings. Time to let go of the past and look onto the future. Time to move on.
I've decided I'm not making a resolution this year. They're paltry, ineffective bits of nothing we use to blame our failures on. I'm so ADD I make them, and after midnight hits I've already forgotten what I said I'm going to do in the new year.
What I want to try to do this year is let go. Let go of all the baggage that holds me down. Let go of the cinder block the memory mafia has saddled me with. This isn't going to be a year of new things, it's going to be a year of getting rid of the old.
I'm going to try to stop being angry at people for things that happened (what seems like) a hundred years ago. I'm going to get through this hole in my heart that, to this day, aches for my daddy. I'm going to forget how to be distrustful and live for second (and third and fourth) chances. I'm going to stop using my past as excuses for current situations.
I'm going to try to let go of that irresponsible teenager that still grips my soul sometimes. I'm going to let go of the nasty habits that plague my well-being. I'm going to stop skewing situations and be straight forward.
I know, you're thinking, "That's a list of resolutions if I ever heard one."
My list is quite different that a list of resolutions. My list is a list that will not allow me to blame anything or anyone for failure. It is not something I can "not" do. They're a necessity for me. It's no different than a list of household chores that need to be done.
Yes, they should be forgot...and ne'er, e'er brought to mind.
~Kim
