Ya know when you lay in bed and all kind of crazy thoughts keep running through your head and all you want to do is go to sleep?
Well, that's been going on for well over a week now (meaning I'm averaging about 3-4 hours of broken sleep a night). Little league is over for the season, I'm waiting for soccer to start for two of the three. We're supposed to be going on vacation in about a week. Bills to pay. Life issues. Money issues. Child issues. The brain just won't quit.
I try very hard to make sure the kids are having a good time on their summer vacation, but they're kids. It's never enough. The sleep overs, the parties, mini golf, the beach, staying up until whenever they want, constantly trying to do something. Yeah I'm that kind of parent. It is what it is, and it's never enough.
The "we're bored" coupled with the lack of sleep and constant nagging of responsibility makes me very cranky. I probably yell more than I should, but, again, it is what it is.
The house is a wreck, I try to get the kids to help, but honestly, it's easier to just do it myself. This incurs the wrath of Mom; my mom. I realize I will never be the parent she was, but I'm not her, I do things differently.
I wait until the last minute for everything, I have all of my life and I can't change that. Well, I won't change it is probably a better statement.
I just want to sleep. That's all. Seems like a rather simple request doesn't it? I don't need lectures and screaming and arguing and fighting.
Give me a break!
~Kim
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