I yam what I yam...

but that’s not all that I am.

Things I learned about myself in 2012 will definitely affect me in 2013. Ok, hopefully I’ll at least pause and think, “I already tried that and blew it,” before doing it again.

I learned that I can juggle a family full of busy people. Sports, music, school, friends, dinner, laundry, etc.  Yeah, I can do that, even mostly successfully.  I mean I’m far from perfect, so I’m bound to fuck up, once in a while.

I’ve learned that no matter how much I want something, I have to have the drive to do something other than think about it and that once I start to put it into action, it’s going to take some work. Usually I’m not willing to put that kind of work into it.

I’ve learned that my ADD is probably my best friend. It’s what gives me the ability to have 15 chainsaws in the air and only nick myself once in a while rather that chopping one of my appendages off. Don’t get me wrong, the nicks hurt like hell, but it means I can keep on going.

I’ve learned that dwelling on the past does absolutely nothing but fuck up the present and sometimes does almost irreparable damage to the future.

I’ve learned there are some things I want to change about myself. I’ve also learn that I may or may not ever change them. And I’m ok with that. It fits my personality.

I’ve learned that rather than need a nudge in the right direction, I may need a forceful SHOVE.

I’ve learned about accountability and how that’s a value very few people possess.

I’ve also learned that my life doesn’t have to be what it is, but I am the only person that has the ability to change it.

I always tell my kids to have a short memory (usually during one of their numerous games). Forget the bad. It’s the only way to move on, to get better, and to be happy.  I should take my own advice.

You should take my advice too.

Happy New Year!

~Kim